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wow, your post made me so sad

I can't really say I've gone through same thing as you did, but I know how it feels. There was a time in my life when I thought I lost the only person who could still make me smile and give me a reason to live.. no deaths involved, just he decided that we should move on with our own lives and break contact forever, and all I could do was respecting his wish.. I can remember my whole world collapsing around me, nothing else mattered, I was just sitting and crying all day, no sleeping, no eating (just rarely.. until I got ill), my only wish was to die or eventually wake up from the nightmare.. I was feeling empty and dead on the inside, just like you said. The thing is, I can't cope with death, so I guess it could be worse. Well, my friend reconsidered and after a month he was back and sorry, so it all went back to normal, but I will never forget that month. My existence was resuming to exactly the way you describe it. I know it's not the same situation you are in, but I do know how it feels to lose the friend you love the most in this world.

Some said it here before, and I'll say it too.. it's not a clishee but I do believe there is some kind of life after death, I don't believe we just pass away and then it's all blank and we dissapear.. I believe your friend is watching you from somewhere and wishes that you move on with your life. It's hard, and it will take time, but becoming a wreck wouldn't make him happy, think of it this way. There are so many things in life that are hard to accept, but there's no other way =/

I hope you'll find the strenght to keep going, and I'm really sorry for your loss..

and those who post mean comments, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't be that brave anymore if you were in his situation. But yeah, sometimes venting and talking about it, even on a forum, it can help. Just ignore whatever doesn't fit in here

Damn this brings up so many (bad) memories from my mother.
So if you don't want to end up like my mother you step up right now and get help. If you haven't spoken about this with your parents do so asap. If it doesn't help get a shrink. I have seen first hand how shrinks and shit can help.
It's usually all about being able to talk to someone and really express all your feelings. People that are close to you may talk to you, but there's a big ass chance they won't understand. Best to just go to a professional. There's a reason they're called professional.

TL;DR.

I was once thrown out of a mental hospital for depressing other patients.


Start painting or writing fiction books. You might at least get rich even if it wouldn't help with your mental problems.
By the way, I want 10% of the painting/book sale income since I suggested it.


I wish I was depressed so I could finally finish this one half-done painting...

PS. remember the right stance.

Indeed, it annoys me to no end.

people who 'never had a day a snow cone couldn't fix' >.>

Then again, i asume Blue is wise enough to ignore the idiots and filter out the serious comments

It seems to me you've already hit the bottom, the good thing about that is that things can only get better from now on.

Good luck and for god sake don't get any suicidal thoughts, suicide is the worst thing you can do to yourself and your loved ones.

Seriously, some people should refrain from posting if they can only say crap ...

Ontopic: I know how you feel, really. I won't say I've experienced the same, but equal things I've definitely had. Best thing to do, is as many said, talk to others. I know too that talking to your parents about this, is horrible. I wouldn't have done it myself ever. But I had contact with other friends and talked to them. They will perhaps not understand you perfectly, but if you've got people to talk to, they will listen and eventually help. I remember the feeling that I just did stuff I'd normally never do, that's how I started smoking (and now quit already again ). You may do some weird stuff, but after a while you'll realise that you can't keep on going like that forever. I'm horrible at helping you probably, just go talk to people. Find new friends. Go out and enjoy life. There's so many things you can do that you probably don't even know of.

Life's a wonderful thing, if you make it that way. That's an important thing to remember: you make your own life. Sometimes things come in that you can't help, but for the biggest part you're responsible for what you do and what you make of your life. So I'd advise you to try and enjoy things, go sport (something which really helped me during a period I was really down), cause sporting makes you somehow work out your anger and frustration and afterwards you're tired, but you'll feel better. I know of many people who go sport when they feel bad, maybe you can do that too?

Wel, good luck with your problem

People die everyday due to accident. It's a normal event. It's not about fair or unfair. Each day, X people die, Y babies are born. That's how the population number is balanced.
You need to cheer up. If everyone starts to be depressed like you after one dies, what will this world gonna be?

1. go to a gym
2. work out until you can barely breathe and your entire body hurts
3. go home
4. crash into your bed and sleep. At least sleep well man.

lol, what's the world come to, NS posted something that made sense.

You're such a morron, i knew you posted something stupid the second i saw your name on my screen.

The reality is, Everyone starts to be depressed, or atleast feels hurt or down if someone dies that is valueable to them.
Humans were given emotions, they tend to play up when you lose what is most valueable to you.

Guess thats what happens if you never had a friend / girlfriend, you cannot relate to a situation where one does have them, you've never felt it and therefor you cant invision life from their perspective.
Did your mom not show you enough love as a kid?

You are an idiot. You didn't understand what I meant. It's ok and understanabke to be sad, to feel hurt, but depressed and can't find a way to live? No. He needs to stand up and continue to go his life path.

This thread Reminds me of my cousin's over-acting thread: I Can't Move On LULZ!

btw he stopped school for this, and 2 months after he saw his crush IN THE FLESH!!!
Actually I was there when time that she slapped him, then beaten up by her 2 big brothers in the MALL.
He stopped school and joined the Philippine Army. After he joined the Army, we never heard from him again. But hes not dead. He just doesnt want to go home because he got embarrassed, like the whole City know whats the Story.

didnt post a thread of this before. Cuz i was busy in Life LOL


Conclusion... Join the Army!!!

OR


This ones easy.

It makes me sick when people bitch about their lives. Suck it up. You don't hear me bitching about my past and I'm not gonna go ahead and tell the world my story just so I can go collect some sympathy points from strangers.

UGhhhh....

You-> <- SRF People in a line

''People living deeply have no fear of death.''
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Love this video, lyrics are good.
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That pic was awesome.

It's ok to be sad but this is not the right place, imo.

blame your parents.

I'm sure people in 3rd world countries are living far better lives than depressed Americans. /Sarcasm. Seriously though, some people have it a lot worst.

I'm really sorry for your loss. It's hard to lose someone, friend, family it's still all sad.
Well, like other have said already, Just keep going!

+1 Indeed

Play ouija board and ask for angel's help? Since you got nothing to lost, you won't care if you meet an evil spirit.

inb4AnHero... oh wait

There are a lot of buttfuck posts in this thread so just ignore them, seriously. Although this topic was bound to catch some flames on it's journey it's best to just ignore them, the last thing you need is to take them seriously.

Usually I wouldn't respond to such a thread, I dislike the idea of preaching to forums. But think of this as a bit of Karma. Years ago, before I got my TedTwilliger account banned and I was active on it, I posted a similar sort of thread. It's disgraceful when I looked back on it but at the same time I understand your position. Back then, Xesnam helped me out a lot and gave some some genuine advice. So I guess it's my turn to try and repay to favor to the SRF community.

First of all I want to say something pretty important. I know why your posting this on SRF, I did it for the exact same reason too. But let me tell you; it's not the answer. Sure, it helps to collaborate your thoughts. But your path is long from being over nor are you all alone in this struggle. I know a lot of people "think" it never works, but go to a counselor and tell him exactly what you wrote here. Just print it out and read it. A lot of my best friends have developed over the top drug addictions and spiraled deeply into depression. But it's always been their counseling sessions that have helped them to turn their lives around. They won't fix everything for you but damned if they don't give you the motivation to do it.

I know things may seem rough, your even questioning the nature of live and faith to try and justify events happening. I'll tell you one thing I've learned in my time though. Deities don't make our lives happy or make our lives sad at various times. We me pray to win our soccer match, to win lotto, to cure our happiness, but they will never give us these tasks. Why? Because if they did than they are living our lives, not us. This time for you is hard, yes. I know, trust me on this. But this is another trial and challenge in life. We are meant to overcome it ourselves, no matter how hard it is, because with enough motivation and determination we can overcome it. If god overcomes this for you he may as well do your tests for you, and kiss your girlfriend for you, a drive for you. Hell, he may as well live your life.

Don't feel like this whole incident is your fault or some sort of punishment. This is just another obstacle placed in your story. Every good story has twist, turns, challenges and trials. When you overcome this there will be more and more in the future. Life wouldn't have meaning without it.

In essence, if I'm to cut out of my preaching crap and just give you solid advice it's simply go see a counselor. I know many people hate talking to strangers but what are you doing right now? It's exactly the same except you can see him. Hell, force him to wear an anon mask if you must, I'm sure he's willing to oblige. I've spent a lot of time dealing with counselors and acting as a mediator for a lot of my disadvantaged friends and I can tell you they do some great work. Give it a try, express your feelings to them. They exist to help you, you are never alone.

Spelling & punctuation is well off. It's way too early in the morning >_<

this X a million times over.

When something bad happens or something you don't want happens, you need to accept it and take it in a mature, sensible way.

At one end of the spectrum, people will go emo and kill themselves. At the other end, they won't be sad for long and be able to accept X event as something that can happen in life. It looks like your going towards the wrong end of the spectrum. Read the above post very carefully because this is the advice you need to take.

If you don't want advice or criticism, whats the point of this thread?

Just start getting interested in an activity, something you're good at. and don't think of your friend as being dead, just convince yourself he moved to someplace else, like florida (unless you live in florida)

Don't worry guys, the mean and "ignorant" comments really don't affect me, I'll read them and I know whether it's worth letting me affect it or not. Some of them may be right to an extent.

Anywho... I come here because well, I kinda feel embarrassed about being like this and don't want to get confronted in real life about it.

That appears to be a wall of text I don't want to run into but from what I read I can say this much, don't be a pussy, don't rely on others/anything, profit, now use the formula.

Quote:

don't be a pussy

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