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ehh, this is kinda personal, so if dont really care, and think this will be wasting 2 minutes of your life just go back...

A couple of months ago, a series of events happened in my life that completely fucked me upside down emotionally...

So, as a result...I just dont give a fuckabout anything anymore and im developing all these new habits that not me not at all, im a good person, when im normal, but right now this isnt me typing, i dont know why im developing this pathological liar shit, just for no reason. (Yeah I get the Irony here...) been robbing people, shoplifting...alot, abusing the **** out of drugs...and being a biggest ****** to people, even my friends and family...but i just really dont care right now, future?... **** that, school? **** THAT, friends and family, **** that too...im really not that type of person that talks to someone personally about this kind of stuff, so i decided to post here, because you guys dont personally know me.. WHAT THE **** IS WRONG WITH ME...i realize the problem..i know i have to stop, but i cant..this really isnt me not at all...
and i dont know what to do to overcome this...i refuse to see a professional even though ive heard that i needed to see one more than enough times,, im not going to suppress this memmory and get a hobby....so..what do i do?

How old are you? Honestly mood swings to get attention.

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i'm confused...do you reaally not give a ****...or are you hiding behind your forum name making up a bunch of random nonsense??? are you really a fat loser that sits in his/her room all day wishing your life sucked and you really had these probs? i dont get it????

that sounds a lot like depression to me and yes, you might need professional help(before its too late and you can't turn back)

You read all that, but you didnt manage to read and understand this Farking peice of information you shithead?

Dystopia, chill out! There wasn't any need for that.
Agent420 - I know you're high right now, and if you are, these forums aren't the best place to be until you sober up. I always enjoy reading your posts and I have some mad respect for what you have to say, but right now, the last couple of posts you've made haven't been the best or most respectful.

Saif - I'll edit my post in a second. Just wanted to say that real quick.

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Guys, if you're going to doubt Dys and flame him, then you need to leave this thread. I think I can say that I know Dystopia relatively well and he's not the type of sorry excuse for a guy that has to make up shit for attention.

Saif, the best I can tell you to do is to give yourself some time and you'll probably come to your senses. Other than that, tell your friends and family that you need some space. I know you say you don't care right now, but when you do start caring, your friends might have all ran off by then if you keep this attitude up. Atleast explain it to your tightest circle so they'll know that you're just going through some rough times in your life right now.
If you're not going to go and see a professional, then there's no point telling you to go see one. Just think about your life. I don't know you personally, but I'd say that you probably have it better than alot of others in this world. Your future is important. For what its worth, you should remember that you have one life and only one shot at this.

If what you're saying is truth, you had a psycothic break down and you're now in the first stage of depression. You need to talk it out. Seek for help, seriously.

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theres a sensative approach,and a non sensative approach.

sensative approach. go speak to a psycologist and work out your issues. as you said you won't.

i cant relate as idont know what it is but here is the...
non sensative approach, get over yourself, you arent the only person with issues in life,and your selfish approach to this issue, may b having a negative affect on people who need you, and are going through equivalant (not the same mind you, but equivalant as to their life.) situations.

hows that?

Well i may not know you personally or know what you've been through. But i've been through a lot of shit that i didn't think i could handle. Turning to drugs and shop lifting is just a way of crying out for help. Not caring about your life and future is a huge mistake. You may be feeling this now, but in 20 years time will you be? The answer is NO, so don't like shit get to you. If you need some one to talk to find a girl that you know there great listeners/problem solvers. (Assuming your male) You may not want to suppress these events but you certainly don't want to harm others because of them. I can't offer you real help, But i can speak from experience when everything seems like its going down hill, you just gotta keep on pushing threw, For every dark day theres a even brighter one.

Hope that helps, if not I wish you luck in finding your self

You are already ignoring it, using drug to make you feel better, deplacing it on your friends, and other people aorund you.

I know it's hard, I've been forced to see a professional in the past and I didn't enjoyed it. But it helped me in a way, now I can face situation and understand them.

Best advice I can give you is to slow down on drugs and enjoy every moments of your life, stay productive. I'm not saying drugs are bad, but you said you were abusing them, so you realised it. Wich mean you are conscient of the problem and would like to solve it.

Try to stay positive, it's the only way you can get your ass out of this shit. :s



I know it sound kinda weird, but im tired. I'll repost tomorrow when It'll be clear in my head lol <_<

I WANT TO SINCERELY APPOLOGIZE TO YOU DYS... sorry for the caps. @ fena i quit smoking pot 2 weeks ago, cigs for new years, and this is the first timei have drank in several months. so i may have come across a little harsh. if you are really feeling this shitty, you need to talk to someone. i got a masters in psych to help me figure out my own probs. i was addicted to heavy narcotics for over 10 years because they helped me escape. i know how much life can suck. i lost my mom, hve been in and out of jail (computer and drug related), and done alot of stupid shit. i would not be typing this if my wife had not saved my life by getting me off the hard shit. your life is a blessing... if you can aford the luxury of playing computer games, you don't have probs...you have issues, which can be easily dealt with (possibly therapy). i am old (2nd oldest on the forum...i think) but iam far from wise. i have learned tons from my mistakes thnough, aND I HAVE MADE SHITLOADS of those. if you are really feeling that down, talk to someone. i wouldn't recomend the rents...but find someone you trust and just unload!!! getr it out you will fweel better, i swear. hit me up if you want. i have been through everything from the closest peole in my life dying, to my job getting hit by an airplane and being destroyed. i have seen some crazy shit. if this is real, i would be more than happy to talk to you...if you'd like. anyway. my ass should get to bed. once again, sorry dys and fena. and have a grweat night!!!


p.s. sorry if i rambled on a little bit!!!!lol

Use to do this, but was doing it a week ago. But more of like me being extremely selfish and not givin a shit about other. But i guess it depends on what made you like this

why tell us? that isnt going to do anything except get u attention, so if thats what u wanted yay for you.

Dystopia, there is nothing wrong with you. At some point everybody realizes they don't give a shit about anything. That's the way it should be. People at school will look like dumbasses, and you won't give two shits about your family life either. Just do what I did and sleep your way through high school. Smoke with your friends and laugh next time you see a group of trendwhore kids. But don't do it in a way that you would fail, because that's just lame.

if its as bad as your making it out to be then the only solution is professional help. I don't mean pills either you need to work through whatever is eating at you. But TBH you don't sound like you want to. If you know somethings terribly wrong with you and you know why and you realize your not acting yourself then you have already come to terms with your condition and if you really wanted to do something about it you would've gotten help for it because you clearly can't deal with it on your own and you know that.

Taking all that into account i can only assume if you really wanted to do something about it you would've already. Its hard accepting help from someone else and theres a certain sense of security in wallowing in your pity and shame, i know, i've been there b4. You only have 2 options. Continue with your shitty behavior and condition or seek help. But you already know that. Now go decide....